Bust your balls

When they say they want you to Bust your balls they mean they can't stand the reality you are showing to them, and they'd like you to willingly commit suicide in order to pretend that their insane, incompetent desires are decent business goals.

Remember what the cliché actually means: To harass with the intent to break one's spirit.

There is nothing innocent in their choice of words. Don't grant them the sanction of the victim. Don't create a fog in your mind by trying to convince yourself that they don't really mean it. They do, and they're counting on your willingness to walk up to the sacrificial altar.